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feel it now
03:02
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I work so much, it's what I dream about.
And sometimes, you'll be there or your name will appear.
"You have a beautiful soul" and I didn't listen.
Just repeated that you are.
You want it, but you don't have fun.
You wonder, but you don't have fun.
Eyes are tired from looking down.
I can look up and within.
Don't want to be there just right here and now.
Thank you to myself. This love: completing.
My mind appears more clear
and I can separate the fantasies.
Filling space to pass the time.
You see, the minds a funny thing.
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2. |
home planet
02:35
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Even the garbage man won't take me out.
I wouldn't trust him.
I'll only put my hair up for you.
I love being disgusting.
I'll lick the floor right after you.
Shameless is only an act i'll do.
I haven't washed you off my shirt.
I'd rather live in your dirt.
No one takes me seriously.
No one's drinking after me.
My leash is wearing out.
My name means nothing now.
Mark your lips with grapefruit scent.
Take me to your home planet.
Tell me i'm normal
Tell me i'm abnormal.
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3. |
phase ii
02:56
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Yeah, don't you want it?
And you know I only aim to please.
Yeah, like I told you,
to push me down, scrape up my knees.
Yeah, you should know now that
no one makes you scream like me.
Yeah, it's so simple,
you can make me cum for free.
Yeah, and I'm on it.
Can you let me know when you get off?
Yeah, we're alone now, so don't make a sound
and let's get soft.
Yeah, and you own this, so you can put me in your dress.
Yeah, pull me closer.
Bite down on me, make me your mess.
Don't worry about me.
I'm my own worst enemy.
I'm alone now and all I do is picture you when you're next to me.
And I can't put my finger on what I'm lacking.
I just have the feeling that I want it all somewhere else with someone new.
I'm the ocean.
The lights in the stairwell.
And it tells me that it's all necessary.
Why, why, why?
I believe I'm lonely.
I just want your company.
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4. |
interlude
00:50
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Oh, would you look at the time.
Can't see how fast that she passes.
I'm not looking back.
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5. |
hookup infatuation
03:17
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Alone again tonight,
it doesn't have to be a weekend.
Open my phone, I don't want to get up yet.
I must have been scrolling for hours.
I don't know when I'll find you
or if it's what I want.
If the grass is always greener,
I'll always run and hide.
This is all from the perspective
of me alone in my room.
Or at least this is how I imagine it.
I'm too shy.
As a boy I didn't have a clue.
Next morning, I'll move in.
I can separate the two.
One day,
you'll see me dancing.
Getting nowhere just takes time.
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6. |
alright
02:18
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I should have told you how I felt when I had the chance but I let fear in.
And the thoughts or lies, they always told me :
"What you get past, this will set you free."
I could hold on if I wanted to.
Now it all just starts to get on by.
I could hold on if I wanted to.
Now it all just starts to feel alright.
Sticking lips to mine.
I can taste the coffee.
Fuck me blind.
You're so intellectual.
To you, I'd never want to be cool.
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7. |
scares me
04:09
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It's easy to get lost in what I always think,
and everything scares me or that's what I always say.
So, I'd rather just go for coffee, I'm not old enough to drink.
And I can say I rely too much on signs, and the way they pull me back every single time.
I find solace in washing dishes- but I never do it.
Does that say anything about me?
And doors will close and I expect that, and I cannot accept that.
Except
I say that I do.
And what does that say to you?
Will you still know my face again in the morning?
Will I still say my name like I know me?
I'm either right or wrong, or no in between
and I don't even know what being tired feels like.
And my head is okay, but better with noise.
But only a few.
So how does it tell me what to choose?
And I prefer lines late at night when I can't count
And I act strung out, but only on you.
Do you like that, too?
Do you wake up at night?
Do I ask myself these questions to you?
Would you depend on others to fix you?
Do you wait, or would you like to?
Was it-
But I won't follow you.
I'm not going that way.
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My mouth is leaking, my mind is gone.
I’ve been asleep for too long.
I’m not home.
I’ve been erased
just to see the look on her face.
Baby’s comforting me when no one’s there,
while I lace my hands in their hair.
It all stacks up in the week
as my family reaches out to me.
Overeating, underdressed,
baby’s got clouds for heads.
It always is until it isn’t
and it’s all over everywhere.
Do you, do you love me now?
How you, how you like me now?
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9. |
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19.
Don't know what I want.
I do, but it's about how to make it happen
and improve my communication.
Got a chair on my arm, so now
I can always sit down.
Don't know when I'll come down.
When you're asleep,
I lie awake.
My mind is left behind in another time,
so I can't believe a thing that I tell myself.
Let it go, oh. (Not anymore)
Everything is quite simple.
All I need to do is look outside and I.
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What are you up to?
Can I come over?
You live next to me.
So I don't see a problem.
You push and you pull.
Now I'm left alone.
Am I approachable? (No, no)
Want you find me.
Only the glances.
Keeping me guessing.
Pull
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10. |
blending
02:27
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I'm only half as bad as you paint me, but
my colors have been blending lately.
All of my friends tell me I'm too busy with
all my worries that I'm perceiving.
Oh, be there and I won't even know.
You be there and I won't even know.
I can't believe anything that I'm seeing.
Keep telling myself, "When you forget, it will be alright."
You're my secret friend by the night.
You hold me, you pull me down.
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